The Best

Sometimes your absolute best is only mediocre.

This is something I personally am struggling to accept.

I love independence and working alone because then

things turn out just the way I want them.

But along comes a job promotion and now I

delegate tasks and rely on a team.

That team work then reflects not only

on my ability to be in charge, but also

my expectations for my staff members.

This would be fine,

if only I was comfortable enough with my staff to

delegate and not have the urge to do everything myself.

So heres the question:

When my team is performing poorly, is it my own fault?

Is it because of miscommunication?

Could my staff not understand what I expect from them?

Or could it be that really they aren't as competent as I assumed?

In the end, no matter which question is correct, their work is my work. Their faults are my faults, and their triumphs my triumphs. Can I accept that? Can I live with knowing all summer that my work may only be mediocre?

maybe... I guess we'll see.