A look at me
Sometimes this crazy thing happens in my life where I get stuck on old memories. In all honesty it's not even stuck on memories as much as it is past relationships.
Even though it was almost three years ago it feels like it was just yesterday sometimes. Seriously it's so rediculous or maybe I'm so ridiculous that I feel like one of those poets whose had their heart ripped straight out of their very breakable body.
Really though, lonely is a sad little messed up word especially when you're surrounded by people. I just want to be over it. Maybe I never will be.
posted by Extracting Focus @ 2:12 PM
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as someone who often struggles in living in past memories i know how you feel. you cant help thinking and thinking of how things once were and wishing that you could go back and maybe if you knew than what you know now you could change things, make thous past memories present. many people don't understand, it is almost a true physical pain. sometimes it feels like you might bleed to death from the thought of them... there is hope tho, there is a cure, and that is time. at some point thous memories that you both love and hate, cherish and despise, will start to hurt you less and
less, until one day they will hurt barley at all. and in a way that too will be sad, but such is life...
One day you gotta let go. I did my Junior year. And I don't know if it was me more than God beating me in the face telling me to get over it. Maybe I'll tell you the story one day, but God gave me a dream, yeah crazy. I knew it was a dream because He gave me a Bible verse in the morning, it just popped in my head when I was in the shower, Ecclesiastes 7:10 "Do not say, 'Why were the old days better than these?' For it is not wise to ask such questions." My situation was I wished I could go back in time and do what I needed to do to marry my childhood crush, or even my high school one. Those days are over, the mistakes were made, the choices were chosen, and now today is the result. The best thing we can do is make sure today is taken care of and our future doesn't end the same way. :)
as much as those memories can be physically painful to recall...appreciate what was, is and will be. We don't know what the future holds - so right now - embrace the pain, regrets, heartbreak and know that better, less lonelier times ARE ahead:)
We can only treasure the good times when we have experienced the bad times.
Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. Thats why it is call "the present"
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